One day in the first week of September,
I was taken to the village center with fifteen other prisoners, all of
us dressed and outfitted in our best. Elated, we thought we were going
home. We were loaded up into cars with about 200 other men, and the train
started out, heading west.
After eight days, we came to a standstill
at a small station between Chernikov and Gomel. The train was unloaded
that evening, and we spent the whole night outside in the pouring rain.
It was a bitter and sobering disillusionment after the great dream we had
had about being on the way home. Completely soaked and frozen to the skin,
we were in considerably bad humors the next morning.
The first person with whom we came
in contact was an old Russian who approached us curiously. Starving as
we were, we offered him our soap to trade for some food, whereupon he treated
us surprisingly well. He disappeared behind his garden gate and reappeared
with apples, pears, milk and bread. Even then, fearing that he may still
have gotten the better end of the deal, he offered us some money. The responsiveness
of this Russian man surprised me greatly, and I had the immediate impression
that the people in this area must have had very little soap.
A number of trucks, ready to be loaded,
picked us up later. As I had already discovered in the meantime, we were
to be taken to a large Kolkhoz to help with the harvest. During
the several-hour-long trip through different villages, I experienced something
that I had never before felt in all my years of imprisonment. It seemed
that there were people in the great Soviet empire who were not only friendly
to us, but actually fond of us. Men, women and children stood curiously
watching on the streets, waving at us and throwing apples and pears onto
the wagons as they passed by. The Russian watchguards cursed and complained,
but they were powerless to act. The remarkable cleanliness of the scenery
left us without a doubt that we now found ourselves in the Ukraine.
The whole population of one tiny village
at which we stopped for a rest gathered around us in an instant, and I
came into conversation with a young farmer woman. She told me that prisoners
came to help with the harvesting every year, and they all enjoyed the themselves
immensely. She said, "Your assignment will make you quite happy. You will
have enough to eat \ so much, in fact, that you may never want to leave
this place. Your predecessors look quite spectacular by the time they left
and went back to their prison camps, which they did with heavy hearts."
Among the civilians, one older woman
went inconspicuously from one prisoner to the next and looked at each carefully,
catching my special attention. She was apparently unsatisfied with the
results of her inspection. Suddenly she broke her silence and cried out
loudly to no one in particular: "Why do you all look so terrible?"
I told her in a very resolute tone in Russian: "We're miners, and we have
been forced to labor in the mines for many years now." Thereupon she swore
and began to curse the Russians, saying over and over "damn devils"; spat
on the ground to emphasize her words and then hurried away, still swearing.
These were how the Ukrainians were.
It was the same everywhere we went: friendly treatment, and even sympathy.
These people empathized with us, whereas the civilians in the Donez area
had only tormented us again and again. However, we had to take into consideration
that there, the people had been working together with us in the hardest
assignments against life and death, and under the most terrible living
conditions, whereas here life was much better for the citizens.
In the afternoon, we reached our new
workplace: a Kolkhoz dubbed "First of May". We moved into our accommodations
in the so-called "club", a large room which served also as the setting
for lectures, meetings, concerts, plays and dances; in short, all the cultural
events of these people. The management of the Kolkhoz had their
offices in small side rooms. Everyone received a sack filled with fresh
straw as a mattress.
There were about 10 Russian watch
guards and at least as many officers, who had chosen this harvest assignment
as the ideal work position. As they saw it, the assignment was not so much
to watch us, but to make a better life for themselves, forage food provisions
for their half-starved families in the Donez and live it up for once in
this controlled society with vodka and women and all the nightly carousing
that went with them. Whenever they were sober, they left us alone. Sometimes
we never saw a Russian soldier for days on end, and we rejoiced in the
freedom we had never before experienced. For four long months, there was
no barbed wire. The commandos went to and from work without guards, even
at night.
One Russian lieutenant colonel was
responsible for the whole organization and disposition of workers. The
officer responsible for carrying out the plans was a German sergeant, who
fulfilled his duty in a military and disciplined manner, but also placed
emphasis on humane feelings and consideration. His main concern was to
provide well-balanced and satisfying meals.
Before we began to work, the lieutenant
colonel held a speech in which he stated that our task was to provide the
winter potatoes necessary to feed our own comrades in the work camps in
Donez. He was leaving it in our hands to ensure (through our own hard work)
that the potatoes would reach their destinations before the coming of winter.
During the daily morning roll call,
we were divided into commandos. There was one large one that went off equipped
with spades to the potato harvest, and this group was introduced to some
remarkable harvesting methods. The Russians dug their potatoes up with
spades just like we hoe our gardens in spring: one man dug, and another
followed behind him to pick up the potatoes.
A smaller commando was in charge of
transporting the potatoes from the fields to the stations, where a third
commando loaded them onto the waiting wagons.
At the beginning, I was assigned to
the fields with the harvest commando. Under the observation of a 20-year-old
girl, the daily norms would be read off to us in the middle of the immense
potato fields. Without a doubt, it had to be quite a difficult undertaking
for a young girl to direct some 100 grown men, especially when the men
were starving to death and saw it as their main goal in life to ensure
that the "camp fires" were always burning so that potatoes could constantly
be roasted again and again.
Eat, eat, and eat some more; this
was our motto in those first few days. Our young supervisor at first tried
in a friendly way to limit our gorging binges somewhat. The prisoners made
fun of her and didn't worry about anything, especially as we always were
able to meet the daily quotas. Indeed, we had a planned and much
larger determination to meet an unallocated "quota" of eaten potatoes completely
understandable in light of all we had had lived through the last few years.
Naturally, there were some who believed that this wonderful life would
soon come to an end and who daily dragged as many potatoes as they could
carry in their pockets into the "club room" and hid them there carefully
under or in their straw bags. With wise foresight as a precaution for any
emergency situations that may have arisen, the really clever ones established
some small, well-hidden stockpiles for themselves near the clubhouse.
In the first days of October, it began
to rain, but the harvesting continued unconcernedly. The ground became
loamy and hard and stuck to wooden shoes and spades, slowing down our work
pace considerably. In spite of this, the assigned quotas of a solid square
meter area of potato field per day were still enforced, a leading to a
great number of potatoes left behind on the ground. Everyone tried as much
as possible just to finish their day's work, no matter how the harvest
itself turned out. Especially the Russian women and children worked lackadaisically
and without interest. The land belonged to them; the harvest, however,
to the state. Why then should they have to work so hard and so conscientiously?
"When the harvest is over, everyone
will receive only as much as he or she needs to stay alive," so believed
the civilians, and they spoke of it openly to us making no secret of the
fact.
In spite of all our efforts, we were
unsuccessful in finishing the harvest before the winter set in. Potatoes,
turnips, sugar beets, onions and all kinds of vegetables were simply left
lying in the fields. The peasants themselves confirmed that year after
year, almost half of the cultivated fruits of the field were irresponsibly
left to rot.
In this harvest assignment, it became
absolutely clear to me that tons of valuable foodstuff was lost here in
this irresponsible manner, products which would have been sufficient to
feed the whole Russian working population.
When seen from the point of view of
the Kolkhoz system proponents, the main reason for the poor harvest
lay also in the fact that there was a noticeably severe shortage of labor,
brought forth by the millionfold casualties of the war. But it was also
due substantially to the whole collective farming system in itself. There
were no propertied farmers, only working caretakers of their own land,
and the harvest itself was distributed proportionally even to these people.
Thus, people naturally lost interest in extensively working and exploiting
their land. Many Russians were still in arms or had been sent to Siberia
for some offense or other. At any rate, they were not here; and women,
children, old men and war invalids were left with all the work. In addition,
they were under constant pressure from the political officers, who did
not shrink from applying the harshest measures when it came to fulfilling
the quotas.
The following incident is indicative
of the inattentiveness of the Russians towards anything that did not belong
to them: One morning, there was an unusual confusion. The roof above the
largest cowshed in the village had caved in during the night of an autumn
storm, and the cattle were buried under piles of beams and straw. Everything
was cleared away in great haste and the rebuilding of the roof began. The
new roof was finished with disproportionate speed. Clean and covered with
straw though it was, no one had remembered to fasten down the roof framework
beams to make it windproof. It could have also been due to the fact that
there were no nails available at that moment, but at any rate, it was left
as it was. It was not their own roof, anyway, so it wasn't so important.
One morning a few days later we were
wakened early again by an unusually loud bellowing from the cows. This
time, the very same roof had been carried several meters away by a formidable
storm.
And what did the Russians do? With
a shrug of the shoulders and a nitchevo (doesn't matter), they began
to reconstruct the roof once again, as if nothing had happened. Again,
the construction was performed with the same carelessness as before. Whose
Kolkhoz
was it anyway? It belonged to the State, and everything in it belonged
to the State, and thus it belonged to nobody, "so what does it have to
do with us?"
Then there was the blacksmith, too,
who went home to bed one night without putting out the fire in his workshop
hearth. Exhausted from his work, he went to sleep with the peacefulness
of a righteous man in his dilapidated hut, just like every other night.
As he woke up unsuspectingly the next morning and started off again to
work, he discovered that his forging workshop had burned up completely
during the night. Anvils and pieces of iron lay around annealed together
in the smoking coals. Of course, the villagers had noticed the fire, and
had tried everything to put it out. But with the roofs of straw and walls
of wood and the little bit of water from the only well which was situated
far away, all their efforts had been in vain. So what did they do then?
They smoked their machorkas and gazed comfortably on the night fireworks
display "Nitchevo." Did they wake up the smith? Why should they?
The workshop belonged to everybody -- and thus to nobody. "The State will
build us a new one soon enough."
I could relate countless similar experiences,
all reflecting this same attitude of the Kolkhoz people. Just one
further example:
Every morning, horses and cattle were
driven out to pasture. To prevent them from running away, their front legs
were bound together so that they could only take very small steps. This
allowed them to graze on one portion of the meadow during the day; then
in the evenings, they were driven back home.
One day, the whole village was bursting
with agitation. A young boy had run up from the pasture out of breath and
explained that one of the horses was lying in the meadow with severe bite
injuries, struggling with death. A wolf had crept out of the nearby forest
in the early morning to the meadow to attack the animal, and had had quite
an easy time of it. Traces of the unfair battle were still clearly visible.
With his front legs bound together, the horse hadn't stood a chance of
defending himself. "Nitchevo," said the Russians, shrugging their
shoulders when they saw the spectacle.
A short time later, a second horse
was attacked by the same wolf in front of the horse stables, and had to
be slaughtered. Someone had inattentively neglected to drive the horse
back into the stall at night. Even so, the villagers still remained indifferent.
Only after the third case, only eight days later, when the incident was
repeated with a very young horse as the victim, did the villagers systematically
begin to hunt down the predator. We prisoners were happy, however, as horse
meat was very welcome in the kitchen.
One day I was assigned to the smaller
commando at the station. Here, there was as much activity as at a fair.
The trucks from the outlying farms brought in their potatoes one after
another to the station, and the huge mountain of thousands of tons of potatoes
waiting to be loaded grew ever larger. Working alongside the war prisoners,
women and girls were constantly hauling baskets of potatoes one after another
up a steep gangway and onto the individual cars.
The station building in these past
weeks had turned into a mecca for do-nothings, tricksters and dawdlers
of every kind. It started with the women and girls, who filled every piece
of clothing with potatoes and then wearily dragged them home after their
work had finished, and continued with the civilian drivers (chauffeuren),
who had masterfully understood how to hide certain "remains" somewhere
in the cars, which they then squandered on the way back for schnapps money
from a black market profiteer. The corruption went all the way to
the Russian officers, who were true masters of the art of hamstering. They
were almost constantly trading, coupling prisoners for hours with civilians??
and pocketing for this thousands of rubles which they thereafter boozed
away. They mostly appeared drunk at night on the loading platforms where
they beat and mistreated the prisoners, stamped out their fires and scattered
the food which had been prepared by the latter to the four winds.
It was quite understandable, then,
that the prisoners also did what they could do to receive their fair share.
A permanent cook was constantly preparing all different kinds of dishes.
Everything was available: potatoes, vegetables, tomatoes, turnips, onions,
sugar beets \ everything that the Russian soil in this blessed land had
to give.
***
The Russian officers in the harvest
camp one day hit upon the idea of eating a roasted hare. One of the Russian
drivers was an especially good shot, and received orders to go on a hunt
with a staff of four prisoners, of which I was one.
On a moonlit night after the first
snow, we drive off in an American cross-country vehicle over heath and
fresh winter seed, up hill and down dale. The hunter had procured and outfitted
himself the day before with dynamite and lead chips for hunting shot. One
unlucky hare, after having been discovered in the garish searchlight, tried
again and again to find cover behind the troughs. The driver wasn't about
to let him rest, however, and went after him until he finally sat up and
froze, thereby falling victim to the poacher. Thus the lieutenant colonel
had his hare, even though the seed in the whole area had been partially
destroyed and the vehicle was in desperate need of repair after the irresponsible
chase over rough terrain.
One more experience: From
a neighboring Kolkhoz, one of our watch officers had purchased for
himself five living geese which he wanted to take back with him to the
Don River. He had an approximately 3-meter-long crate made for this purpose
out of thick planks. Ten prisoners dragged the crate about five kilometers,
loaded the geese inside and returned, panting and dripping with sweat,
with the wooden crate and geese. Finally, one of the prisoners could no
longer hold his tongue over the complete insanity of this order, and broke
out into guffawing laughter, saying: "That was really brilliant, these
are now the seven Schwaben Waisenknaben dagegen?". The Russian lieutenant
wanted to know what he had said. I interpreted, "The Herr Oberleutnant
is a very intelligent person, we all know that. However, it would have
probably gone a little bit easier if we had left the crate behind and each
taken a goose back under his arms. Or does the Herr Oberleutnant
not believe that the geese would have returned alive in this manner?" The
lieutenant stopped short, changed color briefly, realized that he had only
himself to blame and then disappeared without saying a word.
Another delectable tidbit of an experience
from these days, was when our chef, a real "stuffed kitchen bull" as we
had always called him before as soldiers, befriended the so-called night
guard. The guard then invited him to visit his home, adding with a benign
smile that he had two pretty daughters there. The "kitchen bull" went.
It was a festival reception, with roast chicken, potatoes, cabbage and
lots and lots of vodka. Late that evening he swaggered back home in a wonderful
mood, but he couldn't hold himself back from making one last jump into
the "other"clubhouse" where the Russian lads and lasses were dancing. I
met him there, as well as many others who had not been refused entrance.
Although I and my friends later got
back to our rooms unseen, the cook had been detected by a Russian watch
officer. He vamoosed as fast as he could, with the officer at his heels.
The cook was in the kitchen with one
bound. The apron on, a stirring spoon in his hand, the closely-following
officer caught up with him a few seconds fater. With a never-before heard
of zealousness and a true angel face, the "runaway" began stirring up the
cold, clear water in the pot.
His act was successful. The officer
didn't recognize him, nor did he think to check the pot to see what on
earth it was that this cook, working so hard at night, was stirring up.
Nor did he ever did find out where
his escaped criminal had hidden himself during the night.
The closer the day came for us to
return, the larger the anxiety grew that one of the prisoners would escape.
Surprisingly, not one of us had even made an attempt to escape up till
that time. This was certainly due in part good quality of life that we
had there, but also to the repeated assurances we had received that we
would not be sent back again to the mines in the Don pass. What more could
we have asked than to spend the rest of our time here until being sent
home? Naturally, it was a lie.
And so one winter day in 1947, the
orders reached us to move out on Dec. 15. We were told that we were
being sent to load up another 2000 tons of potatoes in Poltawa, which also
turned out to be untrue.
Everyone was busy now gathering together
as much as he could carry \ tobacco, potatoes, beans, peas, onions, sugar
beets. We even took back Christmas sir trees, from a forest that a hunting
commando had discovered many kilometers away on one of their nightly rabbit
hunts. We weren't thinking only about Christmas, but also about the possibility
of selling the sir trees in Poltawa. And just in case we didn't make it
to Poltawa, we would at least have some presents for our comrades in the
mines which would certainly give them a bit of pleasure.
The departure from this hospitable
area and the friendly people with whom we had gotten along so well was
very difficult for us. Even after the train set into motion, the villagers
continued to wave good-bye for the longest time. What lay before us, no
one knew. But what we had experienced in these few months here counted
for me as one of the few really beautiful experiences of my whole imprisonment.
For the first time, we were allowed
to travel with the car doors open.The prisoners went on "patrol" at each
stop in order to systematically increase our stocks of "goods necessary
for life". Sugar beets were worked overnight into a syrup, by busy hands
in the cooking pot set up in our car. Among our tasty cargo was also a
large amount of salt that we had scrounged together in the long months
on the Koekhoz and especially on the train. This, too, was a precaution.
If we were fated to return to the work camps in the Don Pass, salt would
be a good trading commodity.
***
Then that which all of us feared most
came to pass. Nothing materialized of the commando supposedly allocated
to Poltawa. We were all extremely disappointed as the first black mountain
of the Don Basin soon came into view, throwing us back into the harsh reality
much sooner than we could have even suspected.
The days of joy were suddenly over.
The wagon doors were closed and barred. Our freedom was gone, our good
lives were gone, the humane work conditions, all gone. The miserable slave-life
in the mines again threw its shadow threateningly onto the small band of
men, whose very fear of life itself grew larger and larger as the train
approached the well-known station.
Eight days before Christmas -- I remember
this still quite clearly --we arrived at the break of dawn. Fully laden
down with goods, and each of us shouldering a Christmas tree, we marched
back through the gate.